2009/10/07
Woke up 50 minutes ago. Got some upsetting news 30 minutes ago. Made a trembling phone call 15 minutes ago. And for the rest of the day, I’ll be numb.
I wish I could go back to August 2008, and win back 2009, one whole year, so that I could undo the wrongs I’ve made, and erase the past with the knowledge I have today. I feel… Remorse and betrayal. I wish things could’ve played out different and that I still had everything (and at times; everyone) that I so desperately need. I feel remorse. And I’m sorry for the hurt I’ve caused.