2009/10/25
Tonight I dreamt that I had to shoot myself. I was awakened by my own tears and the questions What are you doing? Why are crying?. I remember feeling completely devastated and scared, rambling “I don’t want to die” over and over. I couldn’t go back to sleep for another two hours after that, around 7.45 AM. When I awoke 7 hours later, I still felt anxious and paranoid, or I still do. I’ve got to pull myself together.